Yup, you heard me! I’m meant to be asleep right now. I’m tired enough for it. I’ll drop off in a heartbeat but at night I come alive with ideas and notions and wee things that I just *have* to do before sleeping. I feel creative and inspired but honestly, for all the ‘doing’ in the wee hours, nothing gets done!
And then suddenly it’s 2am and you have to be up for that studio session you’re engineering in a few hours time!
No matter how excited I am about what I’ll be doing the next day (in fact, sometimes that makes it worse!), no matter how invested I am in treating myself well, no matter sincere the promises to myself during the day, the majority of the time I’ll stay up…like 4 nights out of 7.
I love this quiet time when I can be alone and still without feeling judged or pressure that I should be doing something productive. I can read or write or watch a film and it’s fine. It’s my choice and I am free. But I do it to the detriment of my sleepy needs thus defeating the purpose I feel.
So since I’ve done it again tonight I just thought I would put that information out into the Universe and see what happens.
After writing ‘Working WITH Procrastination’ earlier this week I’ve become much more productive during daylight hours and honest about what is tasks I want to do. I hoping that a little honest acknowledgement of what is going on here and some loving light shone into the corners this habit, I can find where the kink is and help smooth it out.
~ Does anyone else out there have the same problem? Any tips or advice would be most welcome.
And I’m off to bed…right now…honestly!